Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Solo... Mother of 5.

The dreaded day came today... it was the first day I ran solo as a mother of 5... and somehow, even with the craziness of the day, we survived. I call it pure "fight or flight" mode. Anytime I fly solo for the first time after a new baby joins our family, I try and document a photo every hour to remember the day. One day I'll look back, and laugh at how terrified I was every moment of today.

7:30 am... after a 5 am feeding for the twins, I was able to get another 2 hour stretch of sleep, before waking up the kids to get Charlotte ready for school. Outfits were on before breakfast was served (which NEVER happens in this house)... and breakfast was an easy oatmeal.

8:30 am... Left the house to take Charlotte down to the bus stop with the other 4 kids in tow. Her comment to me before she got on the bus... "Mom, you got this. Davis' don't give up."

9:30 am... got back from the bus drop off, fed the girls and made our way out the door to get the twins to their 2 week well check... note to self, "make sure you allow yourself 20 minutes to get 4 kids that are 3 years and under, out the door and into the van."

10:30 am... We were still at the doctor's office, because we were sent to the laboratory for the twins' blood tests (PKU). All of the kids did awesome... I have no doubt it was through the power of prayer that we made it out of there alive, without any meltdowns.

11:30 am... Made it back home and settled in. Since we had 1 hour until we had to pick up Charlotte from her half day bus stop drop off, we spent the next hour getting lunch ready, and snuggling babies.

12:30 pm... Left the house to get Charlotte... greeted her with big hugs, and walked back to our house. Nursed one of the twins, fed the kids a quick lunch, and then put Marley and Finn down for naps.

1:30 pm... FINALLY sat down after nursing the other twin... with my first cup of coffee for the day. All of the littles are officially napping at the same time for the last 3 days! (minus Charlotte of course).

2:30 pm... Worked on tidying the house a little and listened to Charlotte read out loud to the twins.

3:30 pm... Pulled out the sewing machine and finished up a wholesale order while Charlotte worked on homework and drew/colored.

4:30 pm... Daddy came home.. whew... all are still alive...

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Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Captivated Us.

I can't even begin to describe the last 2 weeks, other than with the words, "knee deep in babies." I think that's pretty much the most accurate wording that I can come up with. But what a wonderful "knee deep in babies" it's been. 2 weeks... 2 full weeks with these sweet girls of ours, and my heart has so much love for them... and it keeps growing daily.

October 4th will forever be a date to doubly celebrate... two of the sweetest babies that the Lord could give us, joined our family that day. After weeks of "holding" them in for as long as I could... 37 weeks came, and the doctors recommended that we evict. I probably could have held them a few more days... but, at the same time, they were ready... and we were certainly excited to meet them.

In the morning before I made my way to the hospital for a pitocin induction, I was able to enjoy a nice protein packed breakfast with my family. We put Charlotte on the bus for school, and finalized everything we needed in our "go bag". Aunt Courtney (who was "on call" to watch the others) was out for an interview that morning (she got the job!)... so a sweet, new friend stepped in and helped watch Marley and Finn for a little bit, before Aunt Courtney could take over "motherly duties".  I was admitted into Madigan Army Medical Center at 9:40 am, that Tuesday... and while I was filling out paperwork, the hubby dropped off the littles. Man, why is it always so tough saying goodbye to your other kids before a huge life event?  It wasn't long (about 15 minutes) before I was brought from Triage to my Labor and Delivery room. There, I was greeted by Rhena, my L & D nurse, who would take care of me for the remainder of her shift (which was over at 7 pm). She, was a twin mom to two girls as well, so the pressure was on that I would deliver my two girls before her shift was up. The hubby came strolling in around 10:15... and by the time he settled in, my IV line was already put in (as a precautionary). From around 10:30-12 pm, doctors made their way in, so that everyone who was working that day, had met me. One doctor, Dr. E, came in and "checked" me... I was still 3 cm, no progress since I had last been checked a few weeks ago. She also did an ultrasound to see the position that the girls were in. Baby A, was still head down, and Baby B was back to being transverse. I discussed delivery options with one doctor, Dr. C, who came in and announced that I was a perfect candidate for a vaginal delivery as long as everyone's heart rates remained stable and that none of the babies decided to flip or change position. He stated that he felt confident in delivering Baby B breech if we needed... but still had to prepare me for the possibility of a c-section. He also reminded me that because twins is a complicated birth, I wouldn't be able to deliver in the room... but rather would have to be rolled into the OR (just in case). The anesthetists came in as well to just remind me that they were there for me, in case I needed some drugs or an epidural in order to get through this birth. All in all, I had a huge team on my side.

My pitocin drip started at 12:00 pm on the dot.... and they were super pleased to see that my contractions came on quickly, and remained steady throughout the next 3 hours. I was able to breath through all of them, and sat on the edge of my bed to try and get Baby A down a little bit lower. At 3 o'clock, Dr. E came back in, and decided to check me again. This time I was still 3 cm dilated, but Baby A had gone from a -3, to a -1... the perfect position to "break my water" if I wanted her to. I agreed. I knew that after my water broke, the contractions would come on quickly, and REAL strong... the same way it did with my previous pregnancies. I prepared myself mentally, that everything was about to "get real"... Out came the little hook, and POP seconds later a waterfall came out of me. It was the first time I had ever experienced a true "gush" of water... every time my water broke in past pregnancies, it trickled out. All it took was 5 minutes... and my contractions became VERY strong. 10 minutes later, and I had to focus on breathing through each one... 15 minutes later... my contractions piggybacked each other so quickly that I barely had time to rest in between. Minutes later, I looked at my hubby who looked at me knowingly what I was going to ask of him... and out he went to find my nurse and order the anesthetists to come in and do what they do best.

Moments later, at came my dream team... 3 doctors... 1 resident and 2 students. They sat me up in bed, and started to prepare my back for a partial epidural. I decided to go for only a semi... so that I could still feel my legs and all the pressure so that I would know when I was ready to push. It took them over 30 minutes to get my epidural in place.... of course they had to let the student take a turn... two turns to be exact, before the resident stepped in, took over and completed the task. In those 30 minutes, Rhena helped me breath through the WORST possible pain I had ever experienced, while applying counter pressure on my shoulders, while the epidural was being placed. She helped remind me to relax my jaw through my breathing, as well as my shoulders... and to breathe deeply in between my contractions (which was only 30 seconds in between each contraction at that time). Towards the end of the 30 minutes that it took for them to get the epidural in, I felt immense pressure. I looked up at Rhena, and she just "knew"... knew that as soon as I was done and rolled over onto my back, that she would "check" me and see how far along I was.

A little after 4:00, Rhena checked me, and she barely had to even check... she looked up at me, and said, "You're complete"... I looked at her with shock. I had dilated from 3 cm- complete in 30 minutes. As I sit here and type this out, I'm shaking my head at it all still. I can't believe it was THAT quick. She ran out of the room seconds after telling me, and in came the OBGYN's. They reminded me that I needed to deliver in the OR, and that I couldn't push yet... even though I wanted to SO badly. Rhena came back with scrubs for my hubby and a cap for me. We had to prep like I was going in for a c-section... even though I so desperately wanted to just push the girls out right then and there.

They wheeled my bed into the OR moments later, where I was greeted by approx. a team of 14 other doctor/nurses. Since it's a teaching hospital, there were eyes everywhere... and on top of it all, twin deliveries, especially vaginal, are so few and far in between.

Everything was all set up and at 4:15 pm I moved over onto the OR table, where I would have to push. I didn't have much support for my back, so there was a nurse back there holding me up... My dear hubby held my one leg up, and Rhena held the other. After about 5 contractions worth of pushing, Dr. E  stepped in to deliver Baby A at 4:33 pm... our sweet Josephine Lane. The moment she came out, she cried... and after some delayed cord clamping, her Daddy was ready to cut her umbilical cord... and she calmed down immediately as she laid on me and made eye contact with me. It was the first time I laid eyes on her little cleft lip... and all I could think about was how beautiful she was... how she was created in my womb with her little perfectly imperfect lip...

They took her off of me to clean her up... and I was back to business with trying to get the second one out. Since Baby B was still transverse, Dr. C stepped in next to do his magic to get her to come out head first... or through breech extraction if need be. He decided to try and manipulate her a bit by pushing around on my tummy, and feeling around on the outside. He said, "Karen, we can do this..." and I nodded... and just a few seconds later, his entire hand/arm was up into my lady business, and he felt around trying to guide her sack, so that she'd come down head first. I thought the pain I had felt earlier during my epidural was the worst pain... I was wrong. The pain I had felt in that moment, was the WORST pain I had ever felt... EVER. But it did the trick... Dr. C guided Baby B downward. I still needed to get her into position... and my pushes weren't doing the trick. So, Rhena decided to step in, and asked the Dr. if she could play tug of war with me during my contractions with a towel. After what felt like 10 minutes of tug of war during contractions, she was in 0 station, and Dr. C decided to break my water. After about 15 minutes of intense pushes, Baby B came out at 5:24 pm... our sweet Mable Oaks.  As they cleaned her off on me, I delivered both placentas at the same time... and they quickly stitched up my 1 tiny tear.

Josephine Lane weighed in at 6 lbs. 10 oz
Mable Oaks weighed in at 5 lbs. 9 oz.

After about 30 minutes, they wheeled us back into the L & D room...

We gawked at the girls for about 1 hour in our room, before we were then ushered to my recovery room/the room that we'd be for the next 24-36 hours. They asked me if I wanted to ride in the wheelchair... but I opted to walk there down the halls. It was a good bit of walking... and as we walked, they greeted us into the Mother Suite by playing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star " twice... once for each girl.

The next day was a crazy blur, as we barely slept a wink that night... we were too busy tending to two of the most precious little babies we've ever laid eyes on. Their brother and sisters came in the late afternoon to visit... and fell in love with them immediately as well.

These sweet babies, are complete dream babies. Sleeping... eating... pooping... repeat. They're still in the sleepy state of life, which is the perfect way to slowly acclimate from 3 to 5 kids.

We keep telling ourselves that there's no way we have 2 more kids... there hasn't been an increase in sound, at all. But, sure enough, we have grown by 2... and our hearts are doubly filled with more love than we knew we had left in us. They have completely captivated us... our dear Josey and May.
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Tuesday, October 04, 2016

Sweet Babies { 36 & 37 }

Dear sweet little babies,

We are doing one last little check in, before seeing your cute little faces tomorrow (or maybe the next day... depending on how long it takes for you to come out). We couldn't be more thrilled and nervous to meet you. There's so much unknown and mystery on how you two are going to make your grand entrance...

Girls, we made it... we hit 37 weeks, which is full term for singletons... which makes it even more crazy awesome for twins. Mommy gained a total of 35 lbs this pregnancy... somehow. For the longest time, we thought there'd be more gain... but I teetered out towards the end, instead of the typical water weight gain. NOT one piece of clothing covers the entire belly anymore, but that's okay... it feels like Mommy has been sporting mid drifts for the last few days. You should see the looks we get, and the comments ... oh the comments.

Let's talk about your brother and sisters... they're ready, so ready to meet you. We introduced them to what we think we will be your names this week, and they approve... for the most part. Charlotte is still on the fence about one, but likes the nickname that comes along with it. We'll see how they "fit" you though, before introducing you to the world. So excited to see how the littlests, Marley and Finn handle you two as well. Something tells me, they'll be smitten.

Come quickly... but not too quickly (so that it hurts like crazy)... we are beyond ready to meet you... we are so thrilled for you to be a part of "us"...

Daddy, Mommy, Charlotte, Marley and Finn.
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Friday, September 30, 2016

Sweet Babies { Weeks 34 & 35 }

Dear sweet little babies,

We are gearing down to our final few days, and I'm trying to get caught up with all things documented, so that we are ahead of the game for when you two make your appearance.

The last 2 weeks have been pretty uneventful, and for that we are extremely grateful. Not pushing myself to "get too much done" has done wonders at keeping you two inside. I rest when I can, thanks to your dear Aunt Courtney who is here helping (and who decided to job hunt/settle down in Washington) and amazing Daddy (who takes on tasks he usually doesn't take one). They're such a support to Mommy right now, so that you two can continue to grow and do your thing inside, before you come out. You better thank them with extra snuggles/cuddles when the time is right.

We got one last peek at you both the other day... The ultrasound was super uncomfortable, because Mommy had to lay on her back, and that is just hard to do these days... but we got some good looks at you both.

Baby A, you are head down... face down. So we couldn't even see your face (or check on your lip)... but, boy did the sonographer say you had a lot of hair. We'll see how accurate that is, when you come out. You are "in position". Your body kicks up towards Mommy's top right. You measured in at 5 lbs 12 oz... that was 1 week ago (so I'm sure you've gained even more sing then).

Baby B, you were transverse at the time of the ultrasound... laying across the top of Mommy, so that you and your sister were playing footsies together. You showed your face to us... and we saw the chunkiest of cheeks. You measured in at 5 lbs 6oz.

We started passing our NST appointments, FINALLY. It's so terrible difficult to get you both on the monitor at the same time... when one of you moves, the other moves, etc. So, the nurse decided to start monitoring you two separately, and that does the trick, even though the appointments take twice as long.

Tuesday we had one last appointment with Dr. Peterson (who may or may not be the ones to deliver you... it all depends on who is on hospital rounds).  He took a peek at you two with his ultrasound, to check on your fluid levels, and to check on the placentas. To his surprise, Baby B... you weren't transverse! You were head down, snuggled up to your sister... on Mommy's bottom left side (hence why in these pictures, I'm lopsided, and have more of me "sticking out" on my left side). You were sort of spooning your sister, and you seemed so super content. Now it makes sense why the day before, it looked like I dropped... it was because you did Baby B. Your fluid levels were perfect... and we even got to see you both practicing breathing like champs. Which is a great sign!

Because of the gestational diabetes, you two officially have an eviction date of 4 October. Tomorrow we hit your due date month, October... I'm hopeful that you two will decide to come on your own, so we don't have to have a pitocin party at the hospital. But either way... we will meet you two very soon.

Keep growing little ones... we are so thrilled to have you be a part of "us",

Daddy, Mommy, Charlotte, Marley, and Finn.
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Thursday, September 29, 2016

Dear Charlotte Wray { 9 years old }

Dear Charlotte Wray,

We can hardly believe that you are 9... how is that even possible? You're 1 year away from being a whole handful, and I don't think we're even coming to terms with this... yet.

What a year full of changes... more teeth, bigger feet, taller height (still have those skinny "mile long" legs"), new "do", new gymnastics triumphs, new place to call "home... in school rather than homeschooled, new friends, many more lessons learned (usually the hard way)... we could go on and on. But through it all, you've remained the Charlie we love and have come to know so well over the last 5 years. You're still the spunky, full of pizzazz, energetic, colorful, lover of life, kind of girl.

Your favorite color has changed quite a few times this year, the same way it always does each year.... currently, BLUE is your favorite, but purple comes in close second. You can eat and eat and eat all day long, and not gain any weight... we have no idea where all that food goes. Your favorite meal changed to beef stroganoff... you said "bye bye" to spaghetti and meat sauce a few months ago, and prefer your spaghetti with butter now (the same way your sister likes hers). You still adore gymnastics and working out... you have an awesome back handspring. You love to perform shows for us and "floor routines"... You adore creating. Whether it's coloring, painting, making books, etc... you're all in when craft supplies are involved. You still seek out adventures... exploring never gets old, something new is always discovered.

You're in the third grade now, in school... and just adore it. We're trying to get you all the resources you need currently in order to fall in love with learning and enjoy your time there... since your eyes and ears hold you back a little bit. You love your teacher, you love your classmates, and you love music class and P. E. ... A LOT. That doesn't surprise us.

Every year... on this day... I think about your biological mother, that we'll never know... the one that brought you into this world. We are forever thankful for her... and even more so to the Lord for watching over you those years that we weren't there. You are our world sweet girl... the one who made us Mommy and Daddy... a treasure that we don't take for granted.

We love you sweet Charlotte,

Daddy, Mommy, Marley, Finn, and the twins.
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Monday, September 12, 2016

Sweet Babies { Weeks 31, 32 and 33 }

Dear sweet little babies,

Oh you little trouble makers (although that's been recent for us)... you guys have been keeping us on our toes these last few weeks. Hopefully it'll calm down for the last few weeks... that would be really nice, if you could ease up a bit.

Things have been going great since that last ultrasound... haven't had another since, so we're not really sure how big you are... but Mommy is guessing around 5 lbs for each of you by now. We should know more size wise in about 1.5 weeks at the next ultrasound. You two have been spot on with growth, so... and right now you should be gaining about .5 lb a week.... which means, Mommy is feeling bigger and bigger.

Somehow I still don't have stretch marks, but my oh my how you to have "dropped"... I'm sure more "dropping" will happen... but you guys are getting tough to lug around everywhere. Mommy's belly band has been helping, but at times, you guys hate it, because it's pretty snug and you two don't like snug. You'd rather stick out. Not too much fits in the way of outfits, so I've been rotating about 4 tops these days. Trying to keep it minimal, because I'm hoping that once you two are out, my belly will drop a WHOLE lot to nothing. It feels like it's mostly babies these days. I did have to take off my rings.. they're tucked away until I can feel comfortable in them again.

I started NST (non stress test) appointments last week... during my 33rd week. The first appointment went "eh"... we were let go, after 1 hour of monitoring. You two are hard to monitor at the same time... and that's why our second NST appointment on Friday, landed Mommy in the triage. During the appointment, we tried to get you both in a spot (while sitting upright, which you hate) that you'd like, so we could monitor you at the same time... but in the end, Baby B... you wouldn't have any of it. Your heart rate kept dropping, and signs of contracting were present. When the nurse rolled Mommy over onto her right side, your heart rate stabilized, but then Baby A, your heart rate excelled, because I was putting too much pressure on you. Apparently, you don't like to be monitored whiled reclined or while I sit upright. So Mommy was admitted into Labor and Delivery, and they spent the next 7 hours monitoring the two of you. Once we figured out that your heart rates were fine while I laid down, you were good to go. But Mommy was still showing some light contractions (though she couldn't feel them). They felt more like pressure... right before one of you two usually move. Mommy was given an IV to hydrate, and then a steroid shot in the butt... They decided to "check" me, to see if I had any progression... Mommy measured 3 cm dilated at a -3 station. The doctors decided to keep Mommy for 2 more hours to see if dilation continued, or if that was Mommy's baseline coming into this pregnancy, since they'd never checked her before. Two hours later, your heart rates were still awesome, and when they checked again, Mommy was still at a 3cm... so they released me, and I was able to go home. On Saturday, Mommy had one more steroid shot in the butt (this is to help your lungs develop a bit more quickly, and to help slow down labor/contractions)... and when they monitored you on the doppler for 2 minutes, you two were just fine. Baby A you had a 145 HR and Baby B you had a 135 HR.

So, I have been on "light bed rest" the last 2 days... taking it easy, not doing much... lots of laying. I'm hydrating twice as much as I usually am, so I'm peeing about every 2.5 minutes instead of 5 minutes... but it seems to be doing the trick. No more pressure anywhere... except for the normal skin stretching pains (since you two are obviously growing like weeds). This seems to be keeping you two completely content... so that's what I'm going with. I'm not sure about these NST appointments... I think they're more stressful than they are non stressful.. so unless we can figure out a way to monitor you two while we are "comfortable in position"... I don't find them to be very useful. The nurse even said, it's so common to fail the NSTs... it just doesn't sound encouraging. So for now, I'm going to beg to only go to 1 NST a week, instead of 2... hopefully they can grant us that, so we can just continue to rest.

Daddy has been so amazing, taking on all of Mommy's tasks, while still doing his own. He's the best Daddy ever... seriously. He kept saying all weekend, "I don't know how you do it all... because I feel like I just can't." But, he did. He has been the greatest help, especially watching your other sisters and brother. You are just going to melt when you meet him... he protects us and takes care of us so so well. There's no one that I know that takes on the meaning of "Papa Bear" quite like he does. But for now, lets rest, so we can enjoy you even more when you come out and meet us!

Keep growing little ones... we are so thrilled to have you be a part of "us",

Daddy, Mommy, Charlotte, Marley and Finn.

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