When the hubby was getting ready to head out... I think the worst part, was the anticipation of it all. I cried just thinking about it... I cried when we talked about preparation for his departure... I cried when I saw him interact with the kids... I cried when I heard him tuck Marley and Charlotte in for the last time in awhile...I cried... add in some post partum hormones... and well let's just say, I was a mess.
So many sweet friends/family members have reached out and sent kind words my way, and have been praying for us... they've been received, and totally appreciated... So many of you have been in my place before, and you've been a huge encouragement to my sweet family helping us get through this time.
Some of my favorite words, were received by a dear friend Mandy. She wrote, "God's really been laying on my heart lately the thought that when I am weak, He is strong. I'm sure flying solo will be a perfect time for God to display His strength through you. My natural tendency is to say something like "You've got this!" And you probably do... but more than that, He's got this!"
I wanted to share these words with you all... because not just do they work so well with my current situation... but ultimately, through this adventure of motherhood. How often do we find ourselves in the middle of a crisis, and we say/think, " insert name, you've got this!" or "I can handle this..." It's easy to want to control the situation or think that only we can fix something... but in the end, it's so far from the truth. "He's got this."
It's okay to be weak... because "He is strong"...
It's something I struggle with daily. But the days where I rely on Him... lean on Him... let Him take charge... those are the days that we come out on top. The days where I feel fully recharged and ready to tackle the next day.
"Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand" - Isaiah 41:10
I cried at everything for weeks before Mark deployed for 7 months. Hearing him say goodbye to our daughter brought me to my knees and had me in a crumpled mess on the stairs outside her door. I still get teary eyed just remembering that night. The anticipation is the worst. My thoughts and prayers are with you all!
ReplyDeleteExcellent WORD! Thanks for sharing; treasuring it ;)
ReplyDeleteI am convinced the times I trust God the most are when I am the weakest. I think it is God's mercy to remind us that we can't do this on our own, but that we have to trust Him. His mercy draws us back to Him.
ReplyDeletePraying for your family. I'm sure this is just as hard on your hubby to be away from you all.